A few days ago, I said farewell to a close friend. He had been there for me when no one else was able to. He has helped me in ways that I can't even explain to you. I will never have the chance to return the favor. He was my Superman, Friend and Confidant all in one. When he was around, I felt safe and secure.
The farewell came because I messed up; yes I am admitting that I messed things up. I thought I needed more from him. When in actuality he was giving me everything I was looking for in others and on the dating sites. All he wanted to do was make me happy, I missed that boat big time. I did not realize that at the time. I understand now why I pushed him away. It is because; I just didn’t know what I wanted. To be honest, I was afraid to give my heart away, to only get it back smashed, crushed or even broken.